Thursday, Jan. 15, 2004
Hi new Ted-ted!
Okay, anyone ever gotten that feeling that things are changing? That you are going through some sort of evolution that will change you forever and that after a period of learning, you are finally ready to take that step ahead and blossom into a fuller, more accomplished, and more loving individual.
Well, I'm at that point and its a good thing. For a couple reasons.
One being that I've been here before and was far too young and naive to realize it. But, now, I can recognize that I'm at one of those life precipices and that its time for me to jump in head first and trust in myself that I know what to do.
Another reason being that it feels good to know that my life has changed drastically a couple times in the recent past and that I've been learning from all of these changes. However, even more importantly, I'm now ready to take all that I've learned and reaccess who I am, what I've become, and what I want to be.
How beautiful a feeling is that?
I mean, I know so many people who go through this process so slowly and some who choose not to go through it all. Sadly, some are happy to remain the same person and not have any motivation to grow and learn. They remain stagnant and, to me, that is so sad. Life is about learning and changing and growing. The fact that I am capable of that AND that I am not afraid to do it, is something that makes me so proud of myself.
I've been losing sense of myself and who I am lately. I hadn't been as strong as I was perviously. I was becoming passive and latent in this area of my life, but some things are causing me to reevalute this and I'm reasserting and evolving into a new improved person of myself. One who is stronger and more confident and not afraid to stick up for how I feel.
Thats a phenominal and euphoric feeling.
So, yeah, say hello to the new and improved Ted-ted version, oh, probably ten or eleven point o.
;)
ted-ted at 3:29 p.m.